Slowly, it's sinking in.. slowly i'm realizing, coz i'm slow.. will i be able to see these people again?
these whom i've seen every now and then for half a year, whom i didn't know at first but now feel familiar with?
i like to listen to you talk..
i like talking with you..
i've not talked enough with you...
can i talk with you again, on video maybe?
will i remember the times i spent with you, what we all spoke about, the things we did,
will i have the same feeling when i get back to where i have to return far away?
i want to. i will.. keep those in me.

can we meet once again maybe tomorrow or before you leave? dinner or coffee or something else? or at night?
can we have another hug, one more picture?

for the first real time it seems i won't see someone again? will i, or will i not? will i? i'll have to try harder. i want to see you again, all.. Not from your photos in facebook. but in real person

addy says her guide suggests having farewell parties to round up the exchange, but it feels like all these makes me feel more uncertain about what comes next, and more reluctant to go back

but i must, to where i come from, because we're all going to have a holiday together!

but it's still unreal
and it's gonna continue